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Chapter 10 – Everything that has a beginning has an end –Last and final Part 3
Things were not going well for Arjun. Also Sanjana had not yet told Arjun about her health condition as yet. She didn’t want to burden Arjun with her health problems too.
One fine day though Sanjana’s health going in for the worse and she had to be admitted in the hospital. Even though she had been taking regular medication for her condtiton and she was regular in the checkup with her physician her condition also started spiralling downwards.
Sanjana started taking a lot of offs in her office and Arjun started getting suspicious that she was suffering from some serious health problem.
The relationship between them did get more serious and deep after the knowledge of Arjun’s health condition though he could see that Sanjana broke down sometimes when she thought Arjun was not looking. Little did she know that he was very sensitive to every mood of hers and he always knew when she was upset .
He decided to confront her and he visited her in her house one day after office.
Arjun reached her house and knocked on the door.
“Hello Arjun”, Sanjana’s mother welcomed him in with a weak smile on her face.
“Hello aunty. Hope you and uncle are doing good?”
“We are ok son. Sanjana is in her room. Why don’t you go and see her while I bring a cup of tea for you?”
“Thanks aunty “
He went upstairs and knocked on her door. “Come in”
“OMG Arjun. Hi”
Sanjana was all flustered because she had clothes all strewn around in her room and her bed was in a mess. “What brings you here?”, she enquired while simultaneously cleaning her room rapidly before Arjun saw something which embarrassed her.
“Well I was worried about you since you were taking off a lot nowadays. So I thought I would drop in and check up on you.”
“Wellll……. Uhmmmmm…. You see Arjun …..”
“Yes I can see very well thank you. Can you now please tell me what’s ailing you so that there are no secrets between us?”
“Ok I have been meaning to tell you for sometime now. Am suffering from something called Valvular heart disease. Even though I have been under constant check ups and medication things are not looking good right now.”
“Am really sorry Arjun for not telling you so long. Been meaning to talk to you about this … but your situation made me hesitate and postpone everytime I wanted to tell you regarding this.”
“Ok no problem Sanju. I am glad you told me atleast now. So what is the situation now?”
“I don’t know Arjun. We will be going to the doctor again today so lets see what he says.”
“Right. And please tell me the outcome of your visit to doctor as soon as you know.”
“Not looking too good Arjun. Apparently doctor says surgery maybe required because my heart valve is malfunctioning.”
“Its ok Sanju must be just a minor operation. You will survive this.”
“I hope so”
“You will “, smiled Arjun.
Days passed by and the date for surgery had been fixed for Sanjana. It was to take place on coming Sunday.
She was all nervous and kept fretting about small small things.
“Sanju , relax dear. Everything will be fine. Look on the bright side, unlike me your gonna survive this and lead a wonderful and happy life. Not that you don’t live a happy life now but then you just need to accept your position and let things go so that you get peace of mind and get the strength to overcome your difficult situation. Now come here and sit near me so that I can give you the best medication for sadness and depression.”
As soon as Sanjana neared Arjun he just grabbed her and pulled her into his arms for a bear hug and when she was enclosed In his arms the way that she was she immediately forgot her worries and just basked in his warmth and protection.
Sanjana’s phone kept ringing continuously. She got up groggily and checked the time in her bedside clock. “Who in the blue hell is calling me at 2.30 in the morning?, fumed Sanjana and looked at her mobile. She was surprised to see Janani’s name flashing in her phone.
“What is the matter Janu? Why are you calling me in this ungodly hour?”
“Sssss….. Sanju…..”, stammered Janani with her voice filled with grief.
“What…. What is it Janu?”
Janani just kept sobbing into the phone without any words. Sanjana was getting panicked and she feared the worst.
“Tell me what is it Janu!!! I mean NOW!”
“Sanju….. Its Arjun!! He has been admitted in the hospital in a very serious condition. Doesn’t look good dear.”
The mobile dropped from Sanjana’s hand and she stood shell shocked with tears brimming in her eyes.
“Sanju??? Hello…. Sanju??? Are you there? Please answer me dear…”, Janani kept screaming in the phone.
Sanjana regained her senses and sobbed hysterically. She grabbed the phone and said, “janu we need to go to the hospital RIGHT NOW !!”
“Now Sanju, dear be sensible … We will go tomorrow morning… Please relax and we will go as soon as the sun rises. Please dear …. Please.”
“But Janu…. My Arjun is suffering and I need to be there for him!! Don’t you get that???”, sobbed Sanjana into the phone.
“I do get it hon… but please be patient a bit. We will go for sure. Now please go back to bed and we will meet as early as possible tomorrow.”
Sanjana couldn’t lie down in her bed she kept pacing in her room to and fro and just waiting for the sun to rise so that she can go to her Arjun as fast as possible.
At around 9AM they reached the hospital and Janani and Sanjana rushed into the hospital looking for the ward in which Arjun was admitted in. When they found out, they ran as fast as their legs would allow and saw Arjun’s parents in a pathetic state outside the emergency ward.
Arjun’s mom was totally hysterical and screaming, “Arjun!!! My darling boy!!!”and his dad was seen standing in one corner with the tears pouring like a waterfall from his eyes.
Sanjana feared the worst as she slowly made her way towards the ward. Her vision was already blurred with the tears that were fast filling her eyes and her steps became slower and slower. It was as if she didn’t want to know what happened and all she wanted was to see Arjun’s smiling face once again and feel his arms around her.
As they neared the ward they knew for sure that Arjun was now no more. Sanjana just collapsed in front of Arjun’s ward and she refused to get up. Her grief was too great to talk or even cry. She just kept staring at the bed Arjun was in previously and she just kept staring without a blink. Janani was crying profusely sitting beside Sanjana and she hugged Sanjana to offer her support.
After what seemed like forever Sanjana finally let out a wail which could be heard throughout the hospital.
It had been 2 days since Arjun passed away. Sanjana lost her purpose for a happy life. She thought she finally had found the love of her life and she could now be happy at last. But things don’t work as we plan always does it? She seriously considered killing herself since she couldn’t take the grief of Arjun’s death.
Each second was a torture to her heart and every heartbeat reminded her of him. She had stayed stuck in her room for 2 days without talking to anyone.
Today was no different… She heard the door to her room creak open and saw that Janani had come to visit her and she had an envelope in her hand.
“Hi Sanju. I know this is not the right time but I thought I should give you this now lest you take some rash and emotional decision. This is a letter to you from Arjun… I wanted to give this to you 2 days back itself but then I didn’t think you were in a state of mind to read a letter from him so soon. He had asked me to give this to you in case anything untoward happened to him. I refused to take the letter from him but then he persisted and I gave in. I never thought that day would come where I will give you this letter but then now here I am. Am extremely sorry about your loss Sanju I know how much you loved him. But before you decide anything you should read this letter .I will leave you now so that you can decide what to do. And Sanju please know that I love you and will be here for you always whenever you want. Bye”
Sanjana with trembling hands opened the letter.
“My dear love
If you have received this letter then it means am not with you anymore in this world. I have absolutely no regrets my dear because I got to spend some lovely and memorable times with the one person I dared enough to love more than myself. I have been an aloof and unlovable guy since I came to know about my condition. But when I did meet you in the office I realised that you were the most beautiful woman that I had ever seen and I thought to myself I should never miss you now because I don’t have a ‘later’ ever.
The few months that I spent with you have been the most beautiful phase of my life and I can never forget those moments. You are the best thing that happened to me and you will be the last best thing to ever happen to me ever.
They say the destination is never important and the journey makes the experience beautiful and this has rightly been proved in our case. Our journey together is and will be the most beautiful ever and no one can ever change that fact. Yes I agree that our journey has been short but just because you were the last beautiful and amazing chapter in my life doesn’t mean I should be your last best chapter too.
There are more amazing and wonderful experiences waiting to happen to you and my one last wish would be that you shouldn’t let this one short chapter in your life decide the future of your other equally or more beautiful chapters that you are yet to experience.
Yes I know that it will be hard. I also know that you are a strong person and you will get through this and become a much stronger person than you already are.
And dear please don’t worry about your surgery I have prayed for you and I will personally go and torture GOD so that you survive this surgery and live a fulfilling and content and happy life!
Please don’t give up love and go on to live the most beautiful life that you deserve to have.
Last but not the least I LOVE YOU and will continue to love you even after am gone.
Take care my princess
With love and only Love
Flood of tears washed Sanjana’s face as she read her beloved’s last letter to her and she kept re reading that a thousand times before she actually understood what her love wanted of her. She wanted to get through this for him if not for her and so she made up her mind to be a stronger person than she is now and prove to her Arjun that her love on him was too great and she wanted to fulfil her love’s last wish.
Sanjana sat in the favourite spot in her farm house and sat reminiscing about all that happened in the last few weeks. The surgery had been successful and she got to live her life normally again.
The journey had been real hard for her till now. Trying to accept to live without her love was very difficult and also she had to face the surgery and survive it. Probably it was GOD’s will or Arjun’s love on her she survived everything and had only the memories in her mind.
She felt happy because she had decided to live rather than take a coward’s way out from problems. She wondered if she will allow herself to love anyone else again as deeply as she had loved Arjun. Arjun had been her first and true love and he had given her so much to remember and cherish.
Whether she loved anyone else and did she live happily ever after?
Well now that’s another journey altogether.